100 days and 6X Abstinence

I am 101 days in with rigorously working my program after slipping and sliding for a long time.  I never did get to a 6X size but I did get back to 3X.  I've released almost 30 pounds in 100 days through a slow and careful food plan, watching my macros of carbs to fat to protein carefully, keeping my blood sugar stable, and seeing my mood improve as a result.  This was all possible because I focused on Steps 1, 2 and 3 and then 10, 11 and 12 over and over.  I read and re read the Big Book pp.84-88 daily.  I read the passage on acceptance on p.417 so many times... until I stopped twisting the words around and knew it by heart.

My sponsor said at the beginning of working together, just over three months ago now, that absolutely rigorous honesty is required to work this program.  And I have taken her experience, strength and hope on board when my experience, strength or hope faltered.

She says Absolutely Honest Abstinence means no eXtras, no eXcesses, no eXcuses, no eXceptions, no eXpectations and no eXclusions (6 X's).

She also says the road to relapse is paved with deviations (which is practically saying the same thing).

I am reminded of the passage in the Big Book where it reads (p.58):  

Rarely have we seen someone fail who has thoroughly followed our path. Those who do not recover are people who cannot or will not completely give themselves to this simple program, usually men and women who are constitutionally incapable of being honest with themselves.

This.

Blessed be.