Few of us have any interest in “recovering” what we had before we started using. Many of us suffered severely from physical, sexual, and emotional abuse. Getting high and staying high seemed like the only possible way to cope with such abuse. Others suffered in less noticeable but equally painful ways before addiction took hold. We lacked direction and purpose. We were spiritually empty. We felt isolated, unable to empathize with others. We had none of the things that give life its sense and value. We [binged] in a vain attempt to fill the emptiness inside ourselves. Most of us wouldn't want to “recover” what we used to have.
Ultimately, the recovery we find in OA is something different: a chance at a new life. We'’ve been given tools to clear the wreckage from our lives. We’'ve been given support in courageously setting forth on a new path. And we’'ve been given the gift of conscious contact with a Power greater than ourselves, providing us with the inner strength and direction we so sorely lacked in the past.
Recovering? Yes, in every way. We’'re recovering a whole new life, better than anything we ever dreamed possible. We are grateful.
I think the part that really resonates with me today is I don't want to recover what I used to have. I want to recover my health and spiritual wellbeing -- which I did not have before.
Blessed be.
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