For Today - podcast on relapse

Even with my friend visiting as a house guest, I excused myself to listen to a podcast on relapse today. Well, half of it yesterday, the rest today.  So I had to excuse myself twice.  That is progress for me to take time for what I need. I also took her to the gym with me yesterday so I didn't have to give up my training.  Well, she chose to come with me - she could have stayed home, gone for coffee, or whatever.  Also a first for me. 

The part of the podcast that really resonated was that Roseanne did not intend OA to be a "fat and happy" club.  The speaker, John, said if you are 300 pounds and not losing a pound or so a week, you are not abstinent.  After all, the definition is:

Abstinence in Overeaters Anonymous is the action of refraining from compulsive eating and compulsive food behaviors while working towards or maintaining a healthy body weight.  Spiritual, emotional and physical recovery is the result of living the Overeaters Anonymous Twelve-Step program.

I am not a healthy body weight.  The way I'm going in relapse, I am not working towards a healthy body weight.  I am not abstinent.  So I need to rework my Steps.