What was my plan of eating in earlier efforts to work the program? What is it now? What changes do I need to make?And it references a story in OAII where the author says her plan of eating initially was three 15 minute binges a day (It's Elementary, OAII, p.58).
My initial plan of eating was very complex, counting calories, ratios of protein/fat/carbohydrates, and limiting grams of sugar. That was good in the sense I learned my body does better with more protein and fewer sugars. It was not so good in that it was a diet mentality, reinforced by being weighed three times a week at the gym. It fed into my obsessive perfectionism and when the emotions got too much (as they inevitably did without a strong spiritual program) I would binge on sugary, fat, and salty things in large quantities until I felt sated, ill, and self hatred.
Now my plan of eating is three meals a day and one snack that I send to my food buddy the night before. I try to have more protein, fewer simple carbs and sugars. I have bread products much less than before. And I have cut out my binge foods. I have an honesty agreement with my food buddy that if I am making changes to my plan, I will text or email her first.
I also have added a lot more water. I'm having 100 oz a day which is probably double what I was drinking before. And I have 8 days of abstinence and the serenity that comes with not beating myself up with poor quality food.
Blessed be.
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