Behold how good and pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity.
- The Bible, Psalm 133
Tonight is my home group meeting. As I reflect on my week, I've done well with the tool of reading and writing. That is the easiest one for me -- I naturally like both reading and writing. I've done well with reaching out -- a walk with one OA friend, a good call with my sponsor, a text or two with other members. This is not as easy. When I feel low and the depression settles over me like a cloak, I want to hide and isolate. And binge eat. There has been plenty of that this week.
There is a saying in Recovery that you can't do it alone but only you can do it. This is why a meeting can feel better than home. Our unity is absolute acceptance of individuality coupled with a common purpose to relieve suffering. Together.
What am I doing to further unity? Inside me - so there is the thoughtful me united with the desperately hungry, binging me. Inside my group - so I am more than a listening presence. It occurred to me this morning that I haven't shared at my meeting for weeks. I have been too muddled in my thinking, too upset, too ashamed. I need to share this to move past it. And to be more than a bystander in my group's unity.
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