The highest point a man can attain is not Knowledge, or Virtue, or Goodness, or Victory, but something even greater, more heroic and more despairing: Sacred Awe! - Nikos Kazantzakis
The reading today is complex and my mind is tired. The part that resonates with me is that in recovery I regain my sense of wonder, of awe, even reverence for healing -- I am healing the suffering that no human skill or medicine could touch.
I tried everything short of drastic gastric surgery to no avail. I saw and heard others who resorted to surgery weep with regret at the damage done. They were not healed. They were not even a healthy body weight.
The suffering of compulsive over-eating and depression is like nothing I have experienced. I have broken a limb -- and that hurt less than this. So today is day 3 -- I am looking only at today with reverence and hope. I pray for continued willingness. I pray for a renewed sense of wonder.
Just for fun, I googled Nikos Kazantzakis whose quote is above. He was a Greek author and philosopher, famous in English speaking circles for writing Zorba the Greek and The Last Temptation of Christ, which were both adapted to film.
ReplyDeleteHis epitaph reads "I hope for nothing. I fear nothing. I am free."