We shall sooner have the fowl by hatching the egg than by smashing it. -
- Abraham Lincoln
Today's reading says if I push and shove and spin my wheels, it is only an appearance of activity that accomplishes nothing. It is impossible to hurry some things along. Growth takes time. Wisdom takes time. Serenity takes practice, which takes time. Abstinence is not "I want" but "I am willing to do the work and wait for the rewards."
I have heard it said that "I want, I want it right now, and damn the consequences" is the addictive mindset. When I binge, I am responding to the feelings of "I can't cope", "This is too much", "I have to stop feeling this way RIGHT NOW or I won't live." This is smashing the egg. I can cope. I can suffer with my feelings. I am starting to realize that is the only way to growth. I keep short circuiting my progress with bingeing.
I can still want. But I am practicing taking a breath, a pause. It is developing the willingness to wait that will help me grow. Besides, cleaning up smashed eggs is really messy.
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