Our chief want in life is somebody who will make us do what we can. - Ralph Waldo Emerson
Um, yep. I want someone else to take me by the hand, do all the planning for my nutrition for me, and then make sure I follow through. I would like to outsource this part of my life. Then, I wouldn't have to deal with all the emotions and crap around my addiction. But that is a fantasy. The feelings won't go away; at best they go underground. And that is a very tenuous "best" if I am honest.
The only person who can sort this out is me. While I am blessed with wonderful friends and family, when I binge, it's just me. Me and my Higher Power if I have the presence of mind to acknowledge my Higher Power's constant presence. Obliterating my feelings and sense of self with food is something I do to myself. And something I have to take responsibility for. As The Promises say, the reason for my addiction is unimportant. What matters is what I do about it.
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