Tonight, I am satisfied with my day. I ate clean. I worked hard at the gym. I was kind to other people. I was (mostly) kind to myself.
A - abstinence was good - day 1. I put my abstinence first. I tracked my food and water.
E - exercise. Trained at the gym; also a five minute heart rate trial as well as 10 minutes of treadmill.
I - I worked my program today. I had a nap given I slept less than three hours last night.
O - Others. I helped M. with his English. I made chili for me and for MC. I talked to my parents.
U - Uncover? Today, I uncovered (again!) that I feel better when I eat clean, get enough rest and exercise. Go figure. I also feel better when I am kind to myself.
Resentments? I am resenting B for not spending time with me this weekend but I need to let that go - he has other obligations that are very important to him. I resent Adidas for making their sport t-shirts so tight, despite their size chart.
Anger? I am angry with myself that I regained 40 pounds I worked so hard to lose. But this is my process and I need to forgive myself for struggling.
Progress, not perfection. It is not uncommon to gain and lose and gain again in a health recovery journey. Lots of people do it. I am not special in this way. And I am not a failure, either. I just have more to learn. And I haven't given up so I can be proud of that.
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